Here’s something not-so completely different. A proem (ranting + poem). AU NOTE: Have fun, ghost of Dr. Freud!
Vestigial Child
(3-13-17)
What raw ravaged
seed defines me,
I cannot catalog,
but I can define
each wound
by its unwounding.
This sediment here,
youth; that, betrayal
of not telling.
This layer bounded
by leeched limestone laid
where each burial was swift
centuries chipped in
to what passes for
my soul these days.
Eggshell white
pieces, piecemeal.
Peaceful never.
Hurt rage ranging
as far as the tether
allows, sears, marks,
won’t give, won’t forgive.
Scars come unconditionally
coddling the cold warmth
of phenotypic oddity,
biological prop
vestigial child
mad witness to
your own match
immolating from within
an egg hurled
in that moment
coming full cervix
and splattering on
brutal bedrock:
stone of masculinity, madness
metamorphic as cell,
seed, shell. Birth, death
swaddled in light
bundle of bagged
flesh, fresh bulb
in welcome ground
stunted womb
rooming, roaming
from wing to web to ring.
Every decade
laying down silt
in slighted skin
peeled-back
curetted and curated
to show off. Look:
See that charred
oath dashed to hell?
Shelled-out hulls
fall easiest, prey
to gravity, strung
causing welts,
coiling Weltschmerz
around figments
of neck, rendered delicate
by one’s own
sublime grief, a
doppelgänger, which
won’t get out of
the way. Ghost
obscures the body
until all that remains
is the conversation
with the shadow.